Feeling Convicted

 I’ve tried brushing this  feeling away for a long time. Why me? I’ve felt convicted to ditch the booze for a while. I don’t know why but it tugs on my heart. We don’t  have to have a horrible accident or rock bottom to say yuck this poison isn’t good. To be honest I wish I didn’t have this on my heart. It would be way more fun. But I digress.



My zodiac sign is cancer. I’m a nurturer and I love helping people. I feel I’m always searching for the same in people. I read a meme that said instead of asking why is this happening to me? Ask God what are you teaching me? I feel he needs me to help others.. to support them. But then I think me? I really haven’t had anything crazy I just know it’s time to move forward and get this out there. I’m Asking God to show me where he needs me. 

I did a search just to see what quit lit books were available on my Libby app. There are a lot but the kicker is they aren’t available. None of them. That got me thinking. A lot of women and maybe men are feeling convicted too and just not saying anything. 

I’m not one to put myself out there. I don’t like attention especially on topics that aren’t fun. But I feel this is important. God knows. I’m trusting him to show me. 


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